Ever Have One of Those Days?

You know what kinds of days I'm talking about: the ones where you find yourself crying for all the problems in the world.

Today was sorta like that for me.

Morning was great. Kids were great.

Afternoon brought with it a new biology chapter on genetics. Printing out this week's many pages was like pulling a foundational Jenga block. I went tumbling down.

I cried.

I cried for my science-deficient brain. For my fruitless efforts in physics. For my lousy exam grade. For feeling inadequate.

I cried because homework was the last thing I wanted to spend my evening doing.

I cried because I cancelled all my week plans just to study, including a lunch date and piano lesson with Ms. Williams and TLC with Tabitha. I cried harder.

I went from there to crying because I miss my Tali Rose and for changes in the near future.

Tali Rose called me from Chicago but her phone was dying. We talked a grand 3 minutes, most of which I spent trying not to cry. When we hung up, I cried again.

I ate chocolate cake and cried because I know I'll have a headache tomorrow.

A very nice guy from church helped me with physics, for whom I am exceedingly thankful! A few smiles crept across my face, as I felt a little less helpless. Tali Rose called me back, but I couldn't talk. (Do you know how incredibly hard it was to tell Tali I'd call her back when we haven't spoken in 3 1/2 weeks!?)

I called her later, but she didn't answer. I think she'd already boarded her plane to OK. More tears.

Tyler's been sweet and put up with my moods several times on the phone today. I called him. He was at WalMart (I had to smile a little at that) and said he'd come visit me. More smiling.

(Although I must say I almost cried again when he said Angela wouldn't be at Fishing Wednesday tomorrow!)

My dad brought bagels home. Good comfort food. Oh, and mom hugs are wonderful, too.

Sigh. Sorry if you read all that, but a girl has got to use her blog to rant every now and then.