I'd like to try and convince myself (and you, for that matter) that I'm really fine, but today I'm having to admit otherwise.
My second sprint triathlon is scheduled for Saturday. I've been really, reallllly looking forward to this event - not only because I love the competition, but also because this was going to be a fun last hurrah before Tali heads off to school.
Yesterday I found out that I'm anemic (not severely, but my iron stores are definitely low). That explains my fatigue, headaches, dizziness, shortness of breath while exercising, etc. I'm hoping that explains my lack of coordination and mental grogginess, too? Truthfully, it is a symptom I found listed online.
Today Tali and I rode bikes to a local froyo store - in the heat of the day. I had a great time, but I'm definitely wiped out now. I tried to practice piano, and I have zero energy. When I failed to clench my fists tightly, I realized just how weak I am truly feeling. As much as I really, reallllly (did I say that already?) want to do this race, I know I should think of my health. I think I scared myself with not being able to practice.
My mom helped me realize all of this. She could have put her foot down and said, "No!" about Saturday. Instead, she talked through things with me and left the ultimate decision up to me. She said something about wise decisions often being difficult choices. I know this is the wisest decision, especially with traveling next week and school starting the week after. No, I'm not happy about it. Yes, I'm still going to pick up my t-shirt - especially since I've invested $$ in this race already! Yes, I'm excited to support Tali Rose! Yes, it is probably good for me to be reminded of my frailty and the fact that my worth is not dependent on my performance. No, it is not a fun lesson to learn.
Yes, God is good.
I'm proud of you, Jess! I'm sorry you can't participate, but I think this is the best decision for you right now.
ReplyDeleteP.S. I'm anemic, and I have found that protein usually helps when I'm feeling weak.
I'm so proud of you Jessie for making such a hard, but wise, decision. This shows a great amount of maturity on your part. I'll be there cheering you on when you do your next triathlon when you're feeling better.
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Dear Jess, I AM SO SADDD! Yet at the same time, I also feel that this is the wisest decision. And don't worry, honey--we're just getting started on our career as triathletes!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry, Jess! I was severely anemic for a long time, so I know how you're feeling. At my worst my iron level was 14.
ReplyDeleteHave you ever been tested for Celiac Disease or gluten intolerance? I've seen you mention several food problems. I'm also allergic to chocolate along with a laundry list of other things. Once I went gluten free anemia healed itself completely within a couple years. The only relapse I've had with anemia was after I hemorrhaged having Zach. You can find out with blood tests and (sometimes) and endoscopy. Its a pain to get on the diet, but it is quite literally a life-saver.
Hope you feel better!! And if it's any consolation, I can't give blood either. :-)
Thanks, Ari!
ReplyDeleteI'll definitely ask my doctor about gluten intolerance!
Definitely the right decision to not run. I wondered if you were anemic after the blood donation incident. Have you been checked for hypoglycemia as well (low blood sugar)?
ReplyDeleteAw, such a wise younger sis I have. I know this already happened, but I didn't get to read your blog til just now. I'm glad you made the right choice, and that's very true what mom said - most of my wisest choices have been painful. Sorry you had to experience that, but I'll be praying for you to heal quickly so you can do another one soon (maybe I'll train here so I can do one with you when I get back!:)
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