Why I'm Not a Fitness or Food Blogger...or Facebook User

Not to worry, this post is not a slam again any who may indeed fall in the above categories.

As I have grown in my walk with the LORD, I have come to better know myself.
I have learned - through trial and error - that some perfectly acceptable things are not good for me.

I'd love to have a running blog. But I know I'd strain myself to keep a perfect record with blog-worthy race times and workouts. I'd feel guilty for enjoying a rest day, and therefore work until injury.

I'd love to adhere to a strict diet and tell the world about my health successes. I'd tell myself it was all for my family's well-being while actually weaving my own web of control and simultaneously finding myself tangled.

I tried Facebook for a while, after many years of outright avoidance. I found that it, too, was not good for me.

I am too intense for some things.

No, really.

I am driven. Competitive. Regimented. Anal.
I am a perfectionist. I am a control freak. I know few failures.

I am not to be trusted. When left to my own devices, I will nearly always take a good thing and bow down to it as an ultimate thing.

I have stopped logging every hour (minute, actually) of practice. I let myself eat sweets. I take training rest days. I don't do all these things perfectly, but I continue to claim the reality that there is nothing I can do to make God love me any less or any more.

I am in need of Grace. Sweet, daily Grace that covers even my "righteous" filthy rags.

"Whatever men expect, they soon come to think they have a right to: the sense of disappointment can, with very little skill on [the devil's] part, be turned into a sense of injury." -C.S. Lewis

"It is not your business to succeed, but to do right; when you have done so, the rest lies with God." -C.S. Lewis