Remembering

It used to be that you would hardly find me without a camera and a journal on my person. While I have been lazy about my photography and journaling habits in recent days, tonight I am reminded of the importance of documenting and recording life.

Every now and then I spend some time pouring over old journals. This is not because I'm entirely self-obsessed or find my words particularly elegant. It is because I long to remember. Tonight I found myself spending some much needed down-time with folders and folders of photographs. Just as my journals tell stories of a range of emotions, each photograph conjured up specific feelings. It's as if I can place myself back there entirely. Almost like jumping right into the picture.

Scanning the faces of my family and friends, I remember the celebrations and joys.
I remember why some smiles seem forced. Because sorrow is a part of life, too.

I remember what it was like becoming an aunt for the first time.
I remember the shopping trips that did not necessitate photography (but we brought a camera anyway).
I remember warm welcomes and bear hugs after long separation.
I remember laughing so hard about nothing.
I remember the sound of baby giggles.
I remember the weather and the details behind why I was wearing that.
I remember waiting on answers from God.

I remember.

And I am thankful.

Each memory is an evidence of God's continued goodness in my life.
Not every present moment feels Kodak-worthy, so I stop recording.  Consequently, I not only miss the opportunity to give thanks in this moment, but I also forgo reaping the benefits of looking back on today.

I know I suffer from Gospel Amnesia. That is, I am quick to forget the promises of God that are yes and amen for me in Christ Jesus. This is why I look back and reflect. This is why the people of God were commanded over and over throughout scripture to remember.

"Oh give thanks to the LORD; call upon his name;
make known his deeds among the peoples!
Sing to him, sing praises to him;
tell of all his wondrous works!
Glory in his holy name;
let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice!
Seek the LORD and his strength;
seek his presence continually!
Remember the wondrous works that he has done,
his miracles and the judgements he uttered,
O offspring of Israel his servant,
o children of Jacob, his chosen ones!
He is the LORD our God;
his judgements are in all the earth."

-1 Chronicles 16:8-14